don't feel like writing anything today

Today, i spent my day looking for a job.... but only one was successful... really dun wish to slack my time away next year... pray that i get a job soon

Hi guys... back! Its so nice to be back in Singapore again... never felt i missed home so much before... the feeling when the plane landed at the airport was exhilarating.... missed my family, my home and my friends....

The trip to China was indeed memorable cos i m back with mixed feelings... a sense of relieve, sadness and joy....
I m relieve to be back in my comfort zone and back to enjoy my lovely bed... had so many sleepless nite beause the beds were so hard... its as if i was sleeping on planks.. i m not joking! never treasured my bed so much before....
And i m sure no one will ever believe that i actually conquered a mountain that is 410m high... but i have to say that the scenery was really captivating... standing at such high grounds and above everything made me feel as if all my worries are gone, my problems are thrusted behind and i m the happiest person on earth... really enjoyed myself....

Went for massage cos my limbs were aching after the climb.... 18 of our tour grp ppl went and there were 17 female masseuse and 1 male one and i had to get the male one.... wao loa.... so paiseh lah... this is the first time i have a man massaging for me.... everyone kept disturbing me the whole night... hiaz... but his skills are not too bad... haha...


and i actually went to the male's toilet twice.... once or purpose and the second time was a mistake... haha... i pushed open the cubicle and i saw a man squatting.. haha.. so paiseh leh....


Yet, this trip did make me learn something... that we should never take things for granted... we r so lucky to be borned in this prosperous country and i m sure many of us have yet to see the misery that many people are facing in our world today....
I remembered the day which i reached Shantou, a province in Fujian when i was suddenly attacked by a whole swam of beggers... some were blind, some had downsyndrome child, some had no limbs and one had some limb disorder so he practically crawls around... my heart wrenched at such a sight but was so helpless..... i couldnt give them any money cos i would be attacked yet my heart ached at that sight.... i was nearly close to tears at that point of time... till now, that sight still remains firmly in my mind.... it was sure an eye opener for me...
treasure the things we have cos not everyone in this world is entitled to having what we have... we can school, walk, talk and buy almost everything we desire but not everyone is so lucky.... hmm.... be thankful!

Well, have not found a job yet... hiaz...

Hmmm.... woke up at 7.30 in the morning and rushed to the supermarket to buy some christmas goodies for geo soc ppl.... it could be my last time seeing many of them... hiaz...
Well, Michelle, Li qing, Celestine and I chose today to exchange the christmas presents we bought for each other.... but only 3 of us turned up... one went missing in action.... but still had fun... We gave LQ a set of TY toys.. Mich received a photo frame with a picture of me and her in it and a mug from LQ... As for me... Hmm... i received a mug from LQ and the notebook from mich... Love my christams presents....

Why do ppl always hope that others can be more understanding but always fails to do that to others... ?
They neglect their feelings and hurt them endlessly...
Is that called being understanding?
When one was ill and needed the same care....
The person was no where in sight
Is that called being understanding?
Make it sound that it is a must to understand his/her predicament
But never understood the need of others
Is that called being understanding?
Perhaps, the pain will slowly fade but the process is indeed painful..
To be understanding may be one good way to free one from agony...
To nullify the pain, to obscure the pain...
It wont be long that I will understand, the beauty of understanding...
So please be understanding?

Will be leaving for China tmr, so wont be blogging for quite some time... take care my frens and i hope to be back with lots of goodies.... c u guys soon

I used to hold this word very fondly to my heart and always pray that i find only true ones
And I did found many but one was extremely deep
Recalling all the things we did together
Brings warm and happiness to my heart....

But nothing last forever..
the memories will only be memories
Much that it hurts to say farewell to the good old days
I will have too....

I wish you all the best in all that u do
I am always there for you
Always a phonecall away
Do not hesitate to ring me up
Hope that all the good times will never be forgotten and i will be remembered for as long as you live...
FRIENDS FOREVER!

Went back to CJ this afternoon to drop the christmas cards that i have made for them... really feel that i owe them a big thank you for all that they have done for me...
the familiar atmosphere lingers......
Ms lim : You are one teacher that have walked into my life,
You showed me the way and guided me,
THANK YOU...
Ms Ng : The most caring teacher I have met in my whole life
So sweet and selfless that it hurts to see her cry
Much that she cares, it comes with a price
The pressure it brings, the fear that sinks
I still love you for teaching me
THANK YOU
Mr Ang: My first ' Ah beng ' teacher who really cares
Who amuses me with his jokes
Will miss economics lessons to the core
THANK YOU
Mrs Loke: She is one motherly figure of T09
Who never fails to shower her love
Her words of encouragement and despair
Always hits right into our hearts
We have tried our very best
To achieve the A that u have always wished
THANK YOU
Walking into CJ today has brought back many wonderful memories... how much i hope to be back there again next year with all my frens around with me....
Life has changed since the 'A' level ended... some frens have left and some still in contact... it will never be the same again.. i m beginning to feel the emptiness cos i gt nothing to look forward to... no school, no job.... the sadness is sinking in and i hope i can cope with it....
Love all u guys!

Had a wonderful day yesterday... went out with my PW group and went to Lau Pa Sat to eat...
We ate so many things... Mee goreng, rojak, bbq chicken wing, satays, carrot cake, duck rice and fish soup... yummy...
hmm... the mee goreng was not too bad.. Michelle had to work hard by running after the AUNTY who sells rojak, the chicken wings were good, satays were so-so... Sebast was the only one who ate the duck rice, haha... and the fish soup was disgusting... but overall, the meal was good...
Then, we left for the esplanade.. celebrated Sebast's birthday with a melted cake from spinelli... but the cake is heavan man! gave the him Adidas t-shirt we bought for him and glad that he likes it... spent the night playing tai di and Sebast was the ultimate loser... haha...
How lucky can i be? I really love my PW buddies! CJ 042 rulez....Huggiez....

Nothing much to write today... stayed at home the ENTIRE day... so boring.. but made almond jelly with my bro... it smells nice but looks wrong.. haha... will eat it tmr to noe if we are successful... : )

Didnt have a chance to blog yesterday cos my bro was hogging on to the computer... Went to my grandma's hse yesterday and spent my whole day there... ate alot... btw i m definitely going to seek shelter at my grandma's hse during a war cos her hse is always filled with abundance of food... haha...
Now, what should i do? Go attend courses or go work? Hiaz... but i really wish to earn my own money and get the feel of it... but my dad doesnt seem to support my idea.. he feels that i should go take up language courses and improve on myself... what shld i do?

Woke up at 10.45 and was late for my meeting... Met up with Michelle and Sophie at City Hall before eating at Cafe Cartel.. The food is not bad and its cheap... Hmmm... ppl go try, its only about $9. And guess what? I saw my MUMMY! Luckily, i was with girls.. haha...
Then we walked around and ended up at pacific coffee club and chated the whole afternoon away... We had so much fun sharing our love stories... so fun! Well, Michelle and I left for home at abt 6 since we were abandoned.. haha....
Hmmm.... what is the feeling of loving somenone? Perhaps, i really dun understand cos i have never fallen in love before.... is it like what ppl always say... so sweet and nice... well, i think i will have to experience it myself before i noe... may all of us find the right partner in the near future... all the best to all my frens with their potential partners!

Hmmm... well, this is my first entry! hope to make a sustained effort in updating it. It was an interesting day today. Woke up late in the morning and thought that i couldnt make it in time to send Sobia off at the airprt and found out that TERENCE CHIA woke up late too... we were 20 mins behind schedule.. then QIAN HUI had to spoil our plan... haha.. as she couldnt hop on the train in time... Had delifrance at Changi airport and met a weird waitress who asked too many questions but i found her amusing.... but had fun with my classmates.. then, we left to see Sobia off at BELT 3... will be missing u Sobia...

On our journey back, something amusing happened. Met a guy sleeping HORIZONTALLY on the mrt. For a moment, we thought we were on Gotcha... haha... but well, this mobilized the SPECIAL OPERATION TEAM and got the guy out of the train... such a rare event.... i m sure not many ppl will get such an opportunity to witness such stuff... we r lucky!

Then, the few of us went to Raffles Place and had nasi lemak by the riverside... really hated those pigeons that tried attacking our food... so irritating... we were a laughing stock for everyone there as we were frantically running around, avoiding those pigeons... but was fun lah... LOVE all my classmates! Have a good holiday!