Does it always hurt to know the truth? As I was driving home today, I blasted the music to numb the thoughts that kept flashing through my head. A little lost.

The stress of school is mounting once again with all the deadlines pressing closer. I honestly hate domineering people! They simply think they are the biggest person in this whole wide world and orders ppl around like as if we are all her slaves! WTH! Who gave her the audacity to order me around! Fuming with anger. The pent up frustration got onto me yesterday and I broke down into tears.

Daddy shared with me a story of his today... but no link to this incidence above. I didn't tell him his daughter got bullied by someone. He was telling me that he once had a very terrible boss that deliberately made his life very miserable for 4.5 years. His psychotic boss picks on him for the slightest matters and uses vulgar words at him. He told me that his boss is actually 'bo liao' enough to peer over his table to hear his telephone conversation and barks at him after that for what he said to the client. And after 4.5 years of tolerance, my dad lost his cool and told him off and asked for a transfer out of the branch. After that, my dad got his transfer out to another branch. But before dad left, his boss's mum was in critical condition and needed blood transfusion urgently. His boss went round the office to beg ppl to donate blood to save his mum and my dad was the only one that agreed to his plea. What a forgiving dad I have. So proud of him. Even though the mother died in the end, the boss was extremely touch that my dad didn't bear grudges against him for all the bad he had done to him. My dad told me that till today, his boss is relying on sleeping pills to get to bed every night. He always feels that something is hauting him.

I do not know if this is really bad karma, but one thing that I've learnt is that forgiveness is one of the greatest values of life. Holding on to bad memories will only continue to make us unhappy people. History is a baggage that cannot be wiped out from our memory. What is most important is that we look forward. It is impossible to forget but forgiveness of the bad that people have done to you will make us happier people. So why not choose to lead a happier life instead?

Perhaps, it is also time that I let go of the bad childhood memories I had growing up in this family with unloving grandparents who dislike me. Well, what dear says is true. What else can I do about the situation since they are already so old? Holding on to the bad memories have already sapped away quite a bit of my energy. It is time to let bygone be a thing of the past and look forward in what lies ahead. I can't change history but I can change the future.

Learn to FORGIVE!

Have not been in the mood to blog recently but not because nothing has been happening. In fact, a lot of things have been happening. Too much that I no longer know how to pen down. I am mentally tired and havent been able to sleep well. I may smile, but it may not be from the heart.

Havent been doing the things I used to like to do. Losing touch with my friends, losing control of many things that happen around me. The tighter I grip, the more it slips out of my control. The more I think, my more painful my head becomes. Mummy is going for a minor operation next week and hope that everything will go well. My insecurities are setting in again.

On a happy note, met up with Celestine a week back and I had a good time chatting and shopping with her. She is one friend that have been by my side all these years. We may have our quarrels, but they never last for long. Treasuring the friendships with all my dearies. Hoping we can have a PW outing soon.

'A' levels results are released today but nothing to do with me. It's been 2 years ago when I had to go through the torturous period of result anticipation. How time flies.

Today, Sheena and I went back to our secondary school. Met up with Mr Francis to talk about CurL and it went well.:) The journey back to school brought back memories. Bus no. 124 was the bus that I took for 4 years! It's been 5 years since I have left the school. Gosh! Felt so old amongst the girls! hahaha...

Time really waits for no one. Already into my second year of my university life. Treasuring everything that comes my way!