My head feels stuffy. These few days had been extremely tiring with all the reports deadline and assignments to churn out. Although it keeps me working and I do not mind that, I kind of feel that I am missing out a lot of time spent on myself and my loved ones around me.

Visited my maternal grandmother a few days back and she seem to have aged quite a bit. Though I know ageing is a natural process, I can't help but feel sad and hope that I could spend more time with her. I love my grandma... When I was young, I used to spend my entire school holidays at her house cause I hated being at home. She filled the empty me, always showering me with my favourite food and lots of care cause she knows I was not loved at home. Not that my parents did not love me, but my paternal grandparents just couldn't be nice to me cause I am a girl. I remember accompanying my grandma to the market near her old house at Ang Mo Kio. I would be like a spoilt bred having my breakfast while my grandma went and bought all the food that I wanted to eat. This accounts for my hefty size when I was young... hahaha.. But I am still fat now... :P I love you grandma!!!!

Sunday, a weird combination of people went out together. My father, my brother, my bf and myself... hahaha... At least I think its weird. The reason: My brother wants to buy a punching bag and my dad feels awkward going out alone with my brother. Weird but true. My dad and my brother cannot go out together. So in the first time of my life, I have 3 men with me when I bought shoes. :P

I got my internship at Mindshare. :) Shall be going for another interview on Friday and see if I get selected. Need to take a good rest.

Happy 20th Birthday to Shu Ching, my darling successor for CurL. Stay brave and healthy!

After days working on that irritating project, at least the major part of it is over. Even had to forgo a project outing cause of it. Now, will just have to work on the presentation which I am silently praying that all will be fine.

Mummy left for Hong Kong this morning for work. She will be there for 3 weeks. Oh manz... Avy is mummy-less for 21 days! No shopping partner for 3 weeks... hahaha... But anyway, exams are coming and I have yet to start on my revision because of all the projects. Argh!

An update on my attachment interview on Friday. I guess it went quite well cause the interviewer was really nice and offered me a good insight of what the company does. The environment seems quite a nice place to learn. Going for another interview this Friday and hoping it will go well.

Feeling hungry. Didn't take my lunch... :( Waiting earnestly for my dinner...

I stayed up till this morning 5 am to finish compiling and synthesizing the tonnes of information into 20 pages! And spent the whole afternoon today still synthesizing and getting information from all sources. I totally hate this module that I am doing! Sucking away all my energy. The worse part is that I do not even know if my hard work is going to pay off cause I have no idea whether what I am doing is the right thing for that Wei guy! No direction and just doing blindly.

I am so tired... :( Praying that my rashes do not come out again.... Hia... Anyway, here are some failed attempts at drawing some pigs for my project. Have a good laugh, especially those who need to destress... :) hahaha

I have not been faithfully updating my blog because school projects are pouring in like torrents and have just recovered from my cough and fever... hia..So much work to do yet so little time. Exams are coming as well... And still no news of my professional internship...

Something happened at home recently. My grandma is losing her sense... Literally... She keeps saying that people are looking at her and that we are locking her out of the house. Like since when? This has caused some drama at home in which the whole family has been activated... hahaha...

Feeling really tired of projects. Feeling very sick at staring at the computer for many hours, withstanding the back breaking position that I sit, reading over the same report umpteen times, racking my mind hard on how to improve on the project and endless project meetings. I feel that I am heading no where with these projects that are really poor simulations of the real world projects that I will be undertaking. I am dreading it, heading aimlessly but yet pouring in so many hours of hard work... If only I could take a clean break from this academic rat race and expectations of others, to live my own life. But what do I really want? Still pondering but will find it soon.

For now, I shall go and sleep to store energy for tomorrow. Goodie night to all! :)

Happy Birthday to Michelle! Huggies... :) Stay cheerful and cant wait for the meet up.

Happy Birthday to my dearest cousin! May all your wishes come true for the year.

Happy birthday to my dear.... :) May all your wishes come true





























I am still coughing... Argh... And this cough disturbs me every night when I am sleeping. Next, I broke my spectacles into half. I really do not know how I did it, but I did it.

I am questioning if I am really a Singapore kid. First, I got mixed up between Lido and Cineleisure. Then, it was HMV and Heerens. hahaha... I really do not know what to say about myself. Next time, if anyone wants to meet me at those places that have such similar names, do not be too surprise that I may never appear. I will be patiently waiting for you to come save a damsel in distress who is genuinely lost in her own country.

I am sick again! This is like the 3rd time I am falling sick this year. Fever, sorethroat.. Hia.. And no appetite.. :(

It's always nice to know that I have wonderful darling friends who pamper me with stuff when I am feeling sad... Warm nice mocha at coffee bean from my banana friend (aka xinyi)... Fluffy marshmellow from nana... ;) Avy is deeply in loved... Huggies to all my dearie friends...

There is alot of pent up frustration building up in me recently. It is a type of feeling that I have never experienced before... feeling stressed out by the loads of projects' deadline, insecurity and wanting to shut myself out from everything. I just want to stop thinking.... Have been crying buckets of tears since Friday and I am still wondering what is actually causing it. Sometimes, I wonder whether am I a burden, a worthless pampered spoilt brat incapable of even taking care of myself... I really wonder... My chest feels so tight.... Maybe it will be good that I take a long nap if I can ever get to sleep.. 3 failed attempts today...

May tmr be a better day... Hope