Happy Labour Day to all in advance!

It's been a tough 3 days at work this week, skipping lunch and working long hours. I foresee tougher times in the weeks to come. On a good note, I managed to get a day's break on my birthday! Hooray!

Updates on my birthday dates:
1. 1st May- Nana and Shu Ching
2. 3rd May- Xin Yi, Luana and Venetia (My FYP mates)
3. 4th May- Dinner with my parents
4. 5th May- Boyfriend
5. 8th May- Sophie, Michelle & Sebastian (My Project darlings)

Five dates!!! :) Avy feels loved and excited!

I can't seem to really recall what I did at work the whole of last week. The only thing I can remember is that it was busy busy busy. And I broke my personal record of working till 1am on Thursday! I am tired.

I used to get really excited 2 weeks before my birthday but I can't seem to be get into the mood this time round. And so I have been trying to make myself happy by pestering my brother to buy me my bday present earlier... hahaha.. He bought me a mp3!! Hooray! It's a black Samsung K3, slim and nice. :) I am starting to feel excited for my birthday! hahahaha.. :)

My birthday bookings:
1st May: I think Sheena wants to date me on that day
4th May: Reserved for my dearest family
5th May: I assume its my boyfriend.. :P
8th May: My Project mates

Any more dates? hahahaha...

All my life, I have always been putting on a strong front whenever I am with my family. Though people often say that family members are the only ones that one can really reveal one's true self, but I beck to differ. I am always pretending to be strong in front of them.

I guess my childhood had a part to play. The more they detested me, the more I never want them to see me crumble. All these happenings continue to haunt me till today, waking me up in the middle of the night, quivering in anger. I can never seem to wipe them off my mind. I want to learn to forgive and I have tried so hard. I know that all these happenings to me when I was a child is exactly the reason why my parents dote on me so much. And cause they love me so much, I never want them to worry about me. I want the best for my lovely daddy and mummy and it really pains me to see them hurt.

I have to be strong for them...

I have been telling myself time and time again that I need to be strong and I will be. It has been a Sunday all to myself. Being home gave me too much time to think and so I tried to occupy myself with my upcoming FYP and club's stuff. I decided to bury myself with some work so that no one will come and talk to me. I just wasn't in the mood to talk. My initial plan had been to go do some shopping, but was not in the mood to do so and thus it was home alone.

On a good note, I will be away for most part of June.
Korea: 9-19 June
Thailand: 27-30 June

It's another week of work tomorrow. At least it keeps my mind occupied.

Recently, each time when I want to update my blog, I seem to be lost for words. Not that I do not have anything to say, but my mind is in a complete whirl. All that is my mind now is to hope that everything at home will be fine.

I have been coughing for the past week... argh... The incessant cough wakes me up every night. I hope to get well soon.

Sometimes, I simply hate myself. I hate myself for being so lethargic all the time, so whiny, so fat, so emotional and so many more. But I love myself more for being myself... hahaha... So ironic... Yeah.

Good luck to those having exams! Hang in there.