My feelings are complex and I cant explain them myself.

In just couple of hours time, I will be giving my short speech on what I have done for the past year as Vice President of the club and it ends there. I have formally shed away all the responsibilities, all those heavy burdens I have weighed on my tiny shoulders for the past 2 years.

It gets painful when people say that this and that are not well done. I accept criticism but how many people really know that behind the work, is a lone ranger struggling very hard not to drown. It's really depressing and disheartening to know that all the effort that you put in is not recognized or appreciated. The work is not even for myself, it is for the benefit of the whole club. I shall just put a deaf ear to those comments. Maybe I should learn to be a more selfish person. I might be happier.

Went on a shopping therapy on Monday with mummy and it did help a little. Bought a pair of jeans and a pair of short heels. :)

CurL'08 Unveiling Ceremony this Sunday (31st August), 10am, at HortPark! Come down and view the marvelous art work by the beneficiaries and the volunteers!

Just 2 months ago, I was having the time of my life in Korea. Today, I am back in school, engaged in the crazy paper chase. Hia...

Finally met up with the Korean family whom I stayed with during my Korea Exchange Program. I do miss them! They were such lovely host who gave up their master bedroom for us, brought us around to many different places, taught us how to cook Korean food and so many more.... The trip would not be perfect without them.

So, it was my chance to play host since they are in Singapore. I was so excited to see them. Mr Daddy is still the joker, who tickles us with his jokes. Ms Mummy is sweet as ever and prepared for us a gift each. And of course, darling Eva, who is still so shy. Her smile makes my day.

What a lovely day!

In the midst of all recruitment, one particular date brought back so many wonderful memories. It is none other than 18th August. It was exactly one year ago when my team and I pulled through the biggest ever event that WSC could hardly imagined. Those fond memories are still etched very vividly in my mind.

Time really waits for no one. If we let time slip by us, it will.

With all the recruitment over, I can finally take a breather. When I look back, I am amazed that I could have pulled through yet another challenge. Honestly, after CurL, nothing is really a challenge... hahaha... But feeling alone in this battle was really miserable. It's one that I hope I will never have to go through again. Yes! I am finally stepping down. I have made many new friends and learnt many harsh realities of life.

Now, I am going to channel my attention to my FYP. Keeping my fingers crossed that everything will go well.

What a week it has been...! Waking up at 6.30am every morning and rushing all the way down to NTU, carry tonnes of goodie bags, move loads and loads of stuff and perspiring profusely every day for the Recruitment Fair. At least, the effort has paid off. The responses from the potential volunteers were rather good. Everything went well with hardly any hiccups. Phew. Giving my last burst of energy before I can finally step down. Recruitment Interviews on Monday and Tuesday. Last lapse.

I am still wide awake at this time of the morning cause I can feel my heart throbbing profusely and my head is in a complete whirl.

But I cannot seem to pin point the exact reason why I am feeling this way. I guess it is most probably the apprehension of FYP and WSC recruitment next week.

FYP seems to be moving real slow now as we await the confirmation from the Youth Olympic Committee. The feeling of uncertainty is stifling! I really hope this is a correct move. I can't wait for everything to start moving. Though it means less rest time, at least I know we are heading somewhere. Really feeling very nervous about this whole FYP thing.

As a leader, I think I have really failed in many ways. I cannot seem to be able to motivate my members to work and I end up doing everything myself. There is so much that I wanted to achieve in the one year, but only completed less than half of them. I am not blaming anyone for this but myself for being so drained out all the time. At times, I can really feel that I am loosing all the energy in me to push things forward. Next week is going to be a mad rush. All the planning and the things to do are all in my head and I need to get them out before I go bonkers.

I really need to loosen up. Someone, please help me!

I do feel better after pouring them out. My good old blog is always there for me... :)

Happy National Day!

It's been quite some time since I have updated my blog. School has just started and I am already dreading it badly... The greatest horror is FYP! It's going to be a long and exhausting year ahead... hia...

Next week is going to be recruitment fair for Welfare Services Club. I have been put in so much time and effort for it and I hope everything will turn out well. Staying positive.

On a lighter note, CurL'08 ended with a nice note last week. I am so proud of my friends for putting together such a wonderful event for people with disabilities. Some photographs of the event.

I happened to chance upon a Channel 5 program, Trading Spouse. And one scene really touched me. A big man who never shows affection finally understood the power of a hug. He thought that by being critical on his children is best for them turned out otherwise. His children became rebellious and had a lot of dissatisfaction built up in them. All it took was a hug to heal everything. He never knew how wonderful a hug can be until he gave one to his children and finally, receiving one from his dad. Never undermine the power of a simple hug. Hugs to all my friends.

This holiday has been extremely packed and tiring for me. When I looked back, I cannot recall what I have done. No time for myself. Just busy doing things for others. I am totally drained. Totally. The rush of fatigue has settled and I really want to take a rest but I am afraid it is too late. School is starting next week and I for-see a year of rush and exhaustion with my Final Year Project in the pipeline. Recruitment starts on the 2nd week school and I am just praying everything will go well. I cannot wait for everything to be over. I want to shed away all these responsibilities and burden altogether.

CurL'08 is on 3rd August 2008! It will be held at HortPark from 9am-5pm! Anyone who is free, do come down and support! We are at Hands-On House!

Amazing. It seemed like yesterday when CurL'07 ended beautifully. Those memories are still so vivid. I miss working with my 2 buddies. We stood by each other throughout, through thick and thin. Avy misses those days!