Work, work, work... I don't call this post exam celebration.

Friday was spent on YOG meeting. After which, a few of us went to Manhattan Fish Market to indulge in loads of seafood for dinner. Yummy! Well, we waited for half an hour for the food so I guess it cannot be that bad.

Saturday was my little cousin's birthday and spent the afternoon going out shopping for her birthday present. We bought her a cute dress from espirit and a top from Mothercare.

Sunday was spent meeting my FYP mates to discuss the truckload of publicity stuff to be done for our upcoming event. We sat at Millenia Walk's Starbucks from 10.30am to 4.30pm! Anyway, sesame street is down at Marina Square. Managed to snap some photographs of Elmo using my 3 mega pixel phone. Elmo is really adorable.

And now, I am trying to work on the proposal to be submitted by tomorrow.

I need to go shopping badly before I go berserk from the months of deprivation. List of things that I really want to buy:
1. A digital camera to replace by lousy Olympus camera
2. A laptop - perhaps later
3. A nice school bag to replace by old pink bag which I am highly surprised that it has not torn

Things I want to do:
1. Tidy up my room. It is in a complete mess!
2. Go get some exercise
3. Meet up with friends for a good lunch/dinner

Sometimes, I just want to have some time to do the things I want to do like going out with my friends and not be bogged down by tonnes of commitments. When she is takes leave, it is almost mandatory that I go out with her. My timetable is already packed to the brim but I have to force myself to squeeze out a time slot for her. If not, those sarcastic remarks will simply come out of her mouth, piercing deep. Not like I have not been committing week by week to send her to the supermarket, carrying those heavy bags of groceries, loading them onto the car while my brother can simply shirk all these responsibilities.

I am lamenting because I am really tired. Why do people like to impose their preferred time on me and I am always the one having to make time for them? No consideration on whether I am free to do so or not.

I hate living a life for others. It is going to be a tough month ahead with FYP going full force and I have only just ended exams yesterday. Yesterday, I came rushing home to attend to the tonnes of email and phone calls. Where's the post exam celebration? This semester has been very stressful and I before I can breathe, I have sunken into another commitment.

Avy is exhausted. She shall go sleep.

Night after night
The night becomes painfully silent
My mind in a complete whirl
My eyes swollen from all the tears

Night after night
The emptiness deepens
The fear heightens
The future darkens

Night after night
I hope for the strength
I hope for the joy
I hope for the courage

I hope for the day that I can find back my old self.

Celebrated Shu Ching's 21st birthday on Friday and all I have to say is that we had lots of fun, laughing the night away. Some times, it is the simple pleasures in life that keeps you going, especially when the stress starts to mount with the impending examinations. Happy 21st bday my girl.

And yes, I definitely need to blog about this. See that odd looking orange pumpkin in the middle of the Singapore Flyer. I really wonder whose bright idea it was? But whoever it is, at least he/she has created some talking point.