We tend to over-glamorize the things we do and underplay the work of others. Perhaps, that is the greatest weakness of us, human beings. We are blinded by our own shortfalls, but are sharp critics of others' weaknesses.
It had been a tiring month since examinations ended. Sleeping at 4am and getting woken up by phone-calls at 9am in the morning has become a norm to me. Although school has started proper for me this week, my mind is floating elsewhere. The event that the team has been working very hard for is just a step away.
Never had I worked on a project with so much antagonism, frustration and helplessness. Beyond the load of the work, I found myself helplessly picking up the pieces of work that are left undone and unwanted. Its an experience I would say. Its an experience that have left behind many learning pointers for me about human relationships and management of my expectations. In the past, I would have exploded long time ago. But now, I am at ease with myself. Whatever comes, I accept and move on. Dwelling on the unhappy moments only pulls me back and deters me from moving forward.
We only live life once, so let's all learn to forgive and forget. No one is perfect, so just accept people's imperfections and try to work best with what you have.
The Chinese kind of believe that the number "8" denotes luck, but 2008 had not been a fantastic year for the world. The Mumbai attack took away the life of an aspiring and talented spark, leaving behind a family who has to grapple with the loss of such a wonderful wife/daughter/sister.
The economic crisis that hit hard on the world caused lay offs and uncertainty amongst people. It caught many people unprepared.
A peaceful Thailand turned into a violent zone. Worse still, they are killing and harming their own people, as if violence is the best solution to solve the problem.
Personally, 2008 was also not a exactly a fantastic year for me as well. My FYP path had not been exactly smooth sailing. I remember being so loss at some point, that I just wanted to throw in the white flag. 2008 was also a year where I had to cope with many unforseen family issues admist the stress coming from my FYP. The pressure mounted and I felt very lonely.
Beyond the bad, 2008 was a year where all the tribulations have made me a lot stronger. I have learnt to cope with the stress and relationship issues that sprouted at the most unexpected times. Instead of wailing like a baby, I have learnt to hold back my weakness in front of others.
2009 is going to be a trying year as I embark on my journey of searching for a job admist the bad economic conditions. I feel the urgency to find a job because I want my parents to retire without worry.
My FYP event which is coming in a few days time will be a reflection of the work that has been done for the past half a year. I can only sit and pray of the best.
My new year resolution for 2009 is to emerge as a stronger person.
