I am relieved that 10 Jan is finally over! For an event that was only put together just a month ago, I guess that was all I can expect of. Everything went smoothly except for some stupid hiccups that kinda spoilt the mood of everyone... but no event is ever perfect.

The day was packed with so many activities and the greatest joy was seeing the smiling faces of the participants. There were lotsa of kids that came that day as well, and who would not be infected by their enthusiasm and energy?

Looking back, the experience was not that bad afterall. Made new friends and discovered more about myself.

Some photographs of CAN!Run, CAN!Play and CAN!Party. The Singapore 2010 Youth Olympic Games Logo was also launched.

We tend to over-glamorize the things we do and underplay the work of others. Perhaps, that is the greatest weakness of us, human beings. We are blinded by our own shortfalls, but are sharp critics of others' weaknesses.

It had been a tiring month since examinations ended. Sleeping at 4am and getting woken up by phone-calls at 9am in the morning has become a norm to me. Although school has started proper for me this week, my mind is floating elsewhere. The event that the team has been working very hard for is just a step away.

Never had I worked on a project with so much antagonism, frustration and helplessness. Beyond the load of the work, I found myself helplessly picking up the pieces of work that are left undone and unwanted. Its an experience I would say. Its an experience that have left behind many learning pointers for me about human relationships and management of my expectations. In the past, I would have exploded long time ago. But now, I am at ease with myself. Whatever comes, I accept and move on. Dwelling on the unhappy moments only pulls me back and deters me from moving forward.

We only live life once, so let's all learn to forgive and forget. No one is perfect, so just accept people's imperfections and try to work best with what you have.

The Chinese kind of believe that the number "8" denotes luck, but 2008 had not been a fantastic year for the world. The Mumbai attack took away the life of an aspiring and talented spark, leaving behind a family who has to grapple with the loss of such a wonderful wife/daughter/sister.

The economic crisis that hit hard on the world caused lay offs and uncertainty amongst people. It caught many people unprepared.

A peaceful Thailand turned into a violent zone. Worse still, they are killing and harming their own people, as if violence is the best solution to solve the problem.

Personally, 2008 was also not a exactly a fantastic year for me as well. My FYP path had not been exactly smooth sailing. I remember being so loss at some point, that I just wanted to throw in the white flag. 2008 was also a year where I had to cope with many unforseen family issues admist the stress coming from my FYP. The pressure mounted and I felt very lonely.

Beyond the bad, 2008 was a year where all the tribulations have made me a lot stronger. I have learnt to cope with the stress and relationship issues that sprouted at the most unexpected times. Instead of wailing like a baby, I have learnt to hold back my weakness in front of others.

2009 is going to be a trying year as I embark on my journey of searching for a job admist the bad economic conditions. I feel the urgency to find a job because I want my parents to retire without worry.

My FYP event which is coming in a few days time will be a reflection of the work that has been done for the past half a year. I can only sit and pray of the best.

My new year resolution for 2009 is to emerge as a stronger person.

It was the most interesting JC class outing we had thus far. Had our dinner at Zac Cafe which serves really nice fish kebab. After which, we went down Haji Lane, which was a real eye opener for a mountain tortoise like me. :P Ee Bing and I were totally stunned by the number of people who smoke shisha along the roadside. The whole street looks a little doggy which gave me the creeps at first. It's my first time seeing people smoke shisha! Interesting! Some photos from this Arabian night.

The mind is a very powerful thing that governs you. I totally agree with the saying, "Mind over body." Congratulations to all my friends who managed to complete the 42km Standard Chartered Run! Pat pat!

I met up with Edmund and Sheena for a short lunch today, one day after their 42km run. For once, I can walk faster than 2 of them! hahaha.. Reminisce of those good old days where the 3 of us practically met every single day for CurL.

I am working hard to think positive of what is lying ahead of my FYP team in the months to come, trying to keep my tension at bay. I've gotten them into this and I am giving myself a lot of pressure in making sure that everything goes well. I am trying my best not to impose my frustration on the people around me and keeping them within my myself. It's going to be difficult but I will try.

Everyone, smile!

Hahaha.. Got this link from Ee bing's blog and tried it out. It's quite fun! http://www.faceyourmanga.it/faceyourmanga.php?lang=eng

I think my bf's one is quite alike... hahaha.. Maybe its because I spend more time looking at him more than looking at myself.

I am stressed out, totally.

Pulling off an event in one month will most probably be the most goddess thing I have done if it manages to pull through. Feeling the jitters.

At such time, I really hope for a source of support. To be exact, I am craving for support. I do not want to be independent and strong because I am not. My perfectionist instinct is settling in fast as I come to realization that this is not going to be a perfect event that I hope for it to be. Time and bureaucracy are against us.

Have I made the right choice? My heart is in a total confusion.

Work, work, work... I don't call this post exam celebration.

Friday was spent on YOG meeting. After which, a few of us went to Manhattan Fish Market to indulge in loads of seafood for dinner. Yummy! Well, we waited for half an hour for the food so I guess it cannot be that bad.

Saturday was my little cousin's birthday and spent the afternoon going out shopping for her birthday present. We bought her a cute dress from espirit and a top from Mothercare.

Sunday was spent meeting my FYP mates to discuss the truckload of publicity stuff to be done for our upcoming event. We sat at Millenia Walk's Starbucks from 10.30am to 4.30pm! Anyway, sesame street is down at Marina Square. Managed to snap some photographs of Elmo using my 3 mega pixel phone. Elmo is really adorable.

And now, I am trying to work on the proposal to be submitted by tomorrow.

I need to go shopping badly before I go berserk from the months of deprivation. List of things that I really want to buy:
1. A digital camera to replace by lousy Olympus camera
2. A laptop - perhaps later
3. A nice school bag to replace by old pink bag which I am highly surprised that it has not torn

Things I want to do:
1. Tidy up my room. It is in a complete mess!
2. Go get some exercise
3. Meet up with friends for a good lunch/dinner